My daughter Casey was here. She was loved. She is still loved. She is missed every single day. Every single day I see something in her younger brother , and sisters that reminds me of her in some simple way.
I am forever thankful for those glimpses of her that I see in them. It reminds me of who she was and who she became. Her smile. The twinkle in her eyes. The anger that would flash across her face. The way her eyes spoke louder than her words could at times.The passion for people and things she held most dear. The love.
I see her fight in Abby . Lord knows they both have always loved a good argument. And neither of them back down very easily, and both of them have issues with admitting when they are wrong . Total divas to boot. Yes I can easily see , how they are sisters.
I see the compassion in Ally , how they both always like helping someone else out..and are patient and tolerant of others as well.. even when they are irritated as all can get at someone. It's like they take some sort of deep inner breath and explain it again. For them, I'm positive it feels like for the thousandth time and yet no complaints as they do it. Sometimes the looks on Ally's face reminds me of a time when Casey gave me that very same look.
Her playfulness in Bryce. The impish smile when he knows he is doing something wrong and tries to get me to laugh at him. The glee in his laughter when he is happy. The way his face lights up when he is excited. He is probably the child who reminds me so much of her in some ways , but I think that has something to do with her naming him , and how he always includes her in things even though she is gone.
He is probably the child I also feel the sorriest for because he will never know her like the rest of us did. He will never know how much of a fighter she was , how much she loved him, and the passion she had for life. Oh how I wish he had his own memories of her to help remind him of her , and that he would have been a bit older when she died. He was only 2 years old. Only two years of knowing her, two years of being loved by her. Will those memories be enough for him to remember what she did tell him, and show him ?
We are the ones who shall have to teach him about Casey. It is through us , he shall know his big sister who loved him and the twins dearly. Lord, please allow my memories of her be enough that he knows her and how much she loved us all. Please let her sister's memories of her be enough to show him who she was also.
The song that often crosses my mind thinking about her is Garth Brooks, if tomorrow never comes. Id add the video but it isnt available on youtube.
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