Today you would be twenty one years old. Where has the time gone ? I remember your first cry like it was yesterday. From infancy to childhood and then came the teenage years, they weren't always pretty but somehow we got through the rough spots.
I love you and miss you dearly. I can remember the first time I saw you. The ultrasound that told us there might be a few bumps in the road. You were waving your little hand. Funny your hands never did get very big and yet they were a perfect fit into mine. I realized how little your hands were when I was holding them through the night off and on when you would cry out in your sleep at the hospital.
I don't know if you remember that though, but I do. I remember thinking how precious your little hands were and how you still had me wrapped around your little fingers at almost 18 years old. I remember crying while I was holding your hands praying I didn't wake you up,and for GOD to take away your pain because I couldn't. I guess he did. I wish I could have taken it away and have you here today.
I always thought you would be here to celebrate your 21st birthday , something I had planned in my mind from your very first birthday. I never imagined Id be making blankets for hospice in your memory instead of us going out and celebrating your adulthood.
I always thought we would go have dinner at one of your favorite restaurants, perhaps catch a movie , then off to wherever you wanted to go. Instead I'm meeting with hospice to present all 21 of your blankets , and go to the park so we can have cake and remember you. I hope your balloons climb high enough to reach you dear Casey.
I love and miss you. Happy 21st birthday in heaven.
Love forever,
Mom
