Music

I was sitting here tonight and heard a song . A song I havent heard in quite a long time. A song that made me think. The baby by Blake Shelton.

It made me really think.

Surely it comes as a surprise to no one that songs can evoke powerful memories.

I almost cried.

It reminded me I never got to say goodbye to Casey before she passed on from this life to bigger and better things.

I miss her dearly and constantly play our last conversation in my head. I know in my heart that we said all that needed to be said the night before she died. I will always remember the last thing she told me was I love you Mom.

That has to be enough. That is what she chose to tell me to last me forever. For that, I am thankful. For that I feel robbed of being able to hold her hand as she passed on, but from what Im told (from the hospital Chaplin) that is how she wanted it to be, and it was how she wanted me to remember her last words to me.

Such simple words to remember for a lifetime. A lifetime of memories coming down to one sentence. My heart aches so much for her. I love you Mom. I remember looking at her and saying I love you too Casey.

It hurts sometimes how some songs bring back the memories and sometimes they make me smile, other times they make me cry .